to die

piece by piece

i’ve sewn each piece 

where before i laid

along the fine line of life

stuck to dry

i’ve kissed death 

more times than i'd like to

and it still seems 

like everything could go wrong 

the pain in my chest

in my heart

says otherwise 

the barred and bared flesh

the touch, the sting 

i wish i could've been stronger 

but you never liked the word ‘no’

i seethe, sinking deeper into nothing 

a cold, lifeless doll

indifferent 

it isn't fair

i’ve carved and caved my way

into a bodiless soul 

and a heart of gold 

stone cold

i should've been cherished

i should've been loved 

the fire of guilt still burns 

with every decision

i thought i could make 

i felt ashamed of myself 

every inch i begged to go away

but the silence of my tears 

had never been enough 

it was my fault 

that i was cornered by your false trust 

that i even let you in

but it was you that left me here